Yesterday was Day 1 of the Bible in 90 Days. I read last night while my daughter chatted with her Daddy on the computer and was so very proud for not being too tired to get it in. Today has been a little different. It has been a long day and I just now finished my readings for today. It seems like whenever I manage to make the time to sit down and read the Bible, something will stick out to me. Yesterday, I was reminded that God is the one who sees me. No matter what anyone else thinks, God is the one that I need to please.
Today I was actually struck by two things. The first was Genesis 22 when God tells Abraham to take his son that he had waited for and prayed for so long and offer him as a sacrifice. Abraham does exactly as God tells him to do. I can't help but wonder if I would do the same. I have two children and I can't imagine living without either of them. What faith Abraham must have had.
The second thing I was struck by was when Jacob dressed as his brother to fool their father and take his blessing. While I have heard this story all my life, I don't know that I have ever stopped to really think about it. Most of the time when we hear this story, we focus on Jacob's trickery or Esau's outrage, but I was struck by the sadness of Isaac. How he must have hurt to know that his youngest son and wife had schemed against him.
Both of these are instances in which Isaac could have chosen to become very angry with God. I certainly think I would have been angry if my parents had tied me up and been ready to sacrifice me. I definitely would be angry at the deception by those closest to me. And I certainly would be questioning why these things were happening to me when I had been a faithful servant. There are things that have happened in my life in the past few years that have definitely made me feel as though I am being punished for something, but I am going to try to keep in mind that I just need to strive for the faith of Abraham and Isaac. If they were able to keep their faith through these things that were asked of them and happened to them and not question God, then what right do I have to question the plan. Just because I like to be in control doesn't mean it is always the way things are going to happen.