I am currently doing a Bible/book study online with Melissa Taylor's online studies on the book I Used 2 Be So Organized. We just finished Chapter 4 of the book, and it is really hitting home. I am realizing that I try to jam pack my days to achieve things, and, although most of the things I am jam packing my days with I am doing for God, I have been much more concerned with what I am doing rather than what I am being. While I still feel like the things that I am doing are important, I think I need to make sure that my inside is behind the doing of things correctly and not just be doing them because I want to be able to say I did this and this and this. It isn't that I feel my heart hasn't been in it, but my heart has also been very clutter-filled with other things going on and not necessarily focusing fully on what God is trying to tell me and lead me to do.
This has been a tremendous revelation for me, and is going to require a little extra thinking when I am trying to plan out what I am doing for the day. It has also led me to the realization that I cannot feel guilty for trying to get some time to myself each day. I cannot be who I am supposed to be without that time. Do you struggle with carving out time for yourself each day? A quiet time to be with God and have your own time is becoming more and more necessary in this world where we are all accessible 24 hours a day. Since making a concerted effort to carve out at least 15 minutes in my day, I have slept better and been a much better mom to Alyssa and B. We were even able to have a couple of their friends over yesterday, last minute, for dinner because I have been planning dinners out and had it in the crockpot. That is huge for my family. I am also trying very hard to take hold of the memory verse for our study, "The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7b.
We recently finished up our VBS and one of the things that I did was to write leader devotions. I have been asked by several people to write a devotion book, but I am very torn about this. I am no Bible scholar, I just wrote the ones I did from my personal experiences. I am seriously thinking about doing it though. Any thoughts?